Today in chapel we were talking about love and fear. To say it in one sentence, the whole point was that if you have fear, you cannot fully love.
We were encouraged to think about what we're afraid of. What mountain stands in the way of love? She gave us a moment to reflect. It shot to my mind immediately.
Here is the part that is potentially ironic: The thing that I am most afraid of is also one of the things I want most in life.
I know I've always been afraid of it, I just always thought someone would come and save me from it. Now I realize that it's up to me. In order to fully love I must climb the mountain, but I'm fully willing to take the hike as long as you're waiting for me at the top.
Song of the Moment: Ironic by Alanis Morissete (I actually don't really like this song. As my English prof says "The ironic thing about Ironic is that none of it is actually ironic.")
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Beef-let
To pursue, or not to pursue? That is the question.
This question has been surrounding me quite a bit the past months. It seems to come up all the time amongst friends. You like a guy but what do you do about it?
What do you do when you like a guy and want it to be known...so desperately?
Alyssa Bethke wrote a genius blog about this very thing. You should read it because she is much wiser than I am.
I agree with her and her husband: I want to be pursued, I don't want to pursue. I believe this is my place and this is what a God written love story looks like. We ladies should be offering up our hearts to the Lord and entrusting them to Him because He is better at all this stuff than we are.
Here's the rub: this is terrifying. Waiting is terrifying. When he looks at me, are we thinking the same thing? When we talked did he feel the same things I felt? Does he see the same things I see? Does he see me? Have I crossed a line?
During my "boy fast" and growth since then, I have always known I wanted to be pursued. In one of the last Christy Miller novels when her and Todd are (finally) serious, Todd tells her how much he appreciates that she let him take the lead and pursue her in his own time. I've always wanted to hear that, I just never realized it would be so hard.
"In thy orisons, be all my sins remembered." Or as No Fear Shakespeare puts it: Please remember me when you pray.
Song of the Moment: I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12
This question has been surrounding me quite a bit the past months. It seems to come up all the time amongst friends. You like a guy but what do you do about it?
What do you do when you like a guy and want it to be known...so desperately?
Alyssa Bethke wrote a genius blog about this very thing. You should read it because she is much wiser than I am.
I agree with her and her husband: I want to be pursued, I don't want to pursue. I believe this is my place and this is what a God written love story looks like. We ladies should be offering up our hearts to the Lord and entrusting them to Him because He is better at all this stuff than we are.
Here's the rub: this is terrifying. Waiting is terrifying. When he looks at me, are we thinking the same thing? When we talked did he feel the same things I felt? Does he see the same things I see? Does he see me? Have I crossed a line?
During my "boy fast" and growth since then, I have always known I wanted to be pursued. In one of the last Christy Miller novels when her and Todd are (finally) serious, Todd tells her how much he appreciates that she let him take the lead and pursue her in his own time. I've always wanted to hear that, I just never realized it would be so hard.
"In thy orisons, be all my sins remembered." Or as No Fear Shakespeare puts it: Please remember me when you pray.
Song of the Moment: I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12
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