You know, sometimes, God is pretty funny. He works in mysterious ways...and has quite the sense of humour (in my opinion).
This story begins on Sunday night. I was getting ready for bed and having a conversation with God. We were talking about my life and the boys gone and coming. It seemed like that conversation was all I needed to keep me moving forward with strength and patience. But He had more in store for me.
On Sunday night I had a dream. When I go back and think about it, it seems quite odd. Funny, really. But I guess dreams always are when you look back at them. So, I am going to write my recollections of Monday morning (which I took the time to write down):
I was the host of a celebrity competition of some kind. Brett Lawrie was one of those celebrities. When not filming, we would often be found together.
He was kind. He was helpful. He would bring me my glasses when we came inside.
One afternoon, I couldn't find my glasses. I realized the last person to have them was Brett, but he had gone home...to Alaska. I rushed to his house and ended up in my own (but in Alaska). I came in in a panic because a) I couldn't find my glasses and b) we were going to be filming soon and we had to make back all the way from Alaska. I went to the drawer my mom keeps random things and found my old glasses. They were no good. Thankfully, Brett found my glasses. I thanked him and he took hold of my hand and held it all the way back. It was precious. Unexpected. I felt those butterflies in my stomach (even though I was dreaming).
The dream went on. The show continued. And Brett was always by my side. Giving me looks and being kind. It was innocent. It was beautiful.
And then I woke up.
So, yes, I realize that all sounds quite absurd for many reasons. But let me tell you what it meant to me:
1. This "relationship" was unexpected and unplanned. It happened naturally. Without games and broken hearts. It just happened. This is what God wants in relationships. This is what I want.
2. God chose Brett Lawrie. I don't know Brett Lawrie. As far as I know the only things we have in common are that we are both Canadian and we wear the same number (Good ol' 13). I recently heard that you can only dream about people you have seen in real life. I've been watching a lot of Jays games lately so, I've seen him. But I think God chose Brett Lawrie because the chances of me marrying (or even meeting) him are slim to none. God knows my mind likes to run away from me sometimes, but with Brett, it won't. He could have chosen any of the guys actually in my life but no, He chose Brett Lawrie. Good one.
So I spent all of Monday pondering this odd dream and what it meant. Honestly, I knew from the moment I woke up that this was God telling me I've got a great story coming up in my life. A story of love, innocence and unexpectedness. I am willing to wait for this story. My patience is renewed and stronger than ever.
My time of no boys comes to an end in exactly 2 weeks. But, in the past 11 months I have realized what life is really about. And it's not about chasing after boys. God will just bring them to me when the time is right. So I'm done. When I started this I imagined the boy of my dreams appearing right on my birthday (because obviously I deserve an award for my great obedience over the past year....not). I'm so ready to wait and let God move the pieces of my life in their own time and place.
The last moment of hilarity of this Monday. All this thinking put me in one of my indescribable moods. So, on the way home I opted to listen to my iPod in the car instead of the radio as per usual. I was stuck in traffic for over an hour. When I finally pulled into my driveway I took my iPod out and Brad Loveday was putting on the last song because he was late for dinner (as he always is). The following was the final song. Only God would keep me stuck in traffic for over an hour just so I can hear one song. One song to wrap up my entire day and thought process. God, You are just hilarious.
Song of the Moment: Your Hands by JJ Heller
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12
