So my oldest brother has a blog. And i check it semi-often to see what's happening in his life. Being that he lives out of the province and isn't the best at giving a call or sending an e-mail i've become used to reading his blog. Just so that i can get a glimpse into how he is...what's happening in his life...and what he may be holding out on telling us here at home.
I always learn new things from his blogs. It used to be just funny stuff he did with his buddies. But lately he's been baring his soul. Or close to it I'd assume. And lately....it seems like we've been on the same wave length. Like both of us are standing on that crazy island i like to call Confusion. Who can we trust? Who are our real friends? What's really going on in our lives? How do I get off this freaking island?
And I personally can't seem to figure it out. I'm pretty darn stuck. And have been for a while. And i'm pretty sure he's been stuck for a while too.
I'm beginning to realise that we had more in common than i thought we did. Before it was just our taste in music....and the way we act. But now I've realised...it's also what we keep inside. I don't tell people how i feel. And i'm just trying to find someone I can talk to...but it's hard to find someone you can truly trust with everything. And I think that i'm slowly getting closer. And my brother....well it sounds as if he's got someone...but might be losing that person...or something along those lines.
So what are we supposed to do? Keep going it alone? Maybe...or maybe not. The truth is I don't really know where this is going. I really don't. I'm just moving my fingers and watching as they type these words across the screne. Trying to figure it all out.
And so....maybe I'll end this. On a neverending thought....that i may never figure it out. But I'm just going to say...Eric if you read this. Remember....I love you. And i'm always willing to talk. And even though i'm only 15 and you're 21...I can still try. And I am a really good listener. And hey...we're flesh and blood...and that beats everything else as far as i can tell
I LOVE YOU ♥
Song of the Day: To Sputnik With Love by QSarah...There will be times when you're feeling all alone but please don't forget you're never far from home...I LOVE YOU
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young
1 Timothy 4:12
Music is what feelings sound like...so loose yourself in it
[if anyone is interested/actually read my blog my brothers blog is muffinsrsweet.blogspot.com]
