Promise You Kid

Maybe the reason your single is you focus on not being single instead of discovering YOU.

A friend of mine tweeted that yesterday. When I got it I thought he was actually talking to me, but who really knows. This is something I have been thinking a lot the past few weeks. No. The past few months.

I have found that I have gotten caught up in too many things too fast. I let my mind wander and get distracted and then when I finally open my eyes I have no idea how I let myself get there. Its time for that to stop.

As I said in my last blog: I am going to stop looking for love and just wait. But I'm going to do more than wait. I'm going to learn and I'm going to grow as I have been for quite a while now. But I know I need to grow more before I can be ready for what I want in my future.

In Song of Songs the verse "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" appears three times. It resides in my head all the time. I have learned that you can't force love nor can you find love. Love finds you when God decides the time is right.

So until that time I will not try to arouse or awaken love. I will continue to grow and hopefully someday I will grow near to someone else. Until then I am perfectly okay with waiting for God's impeccable timing.

Song of the Moment: Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble (...or maybe I have. Who knows? *shrug*)

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12

No Longer Looking, but Waiting

I have been doing a lot of thinking the last few weeks. Thinking about my life in the present and what I want in the future. I came to the realization a few weeks ago that I have been trying to make my life what I want it to be instead of what God wants it to be. I've taken situations that come up in my life and tried to bend them and mold them into how I think they should fit into my life. Obviously, that was not a smart thing to do.

So, I have decided on something new. I am not going to look for things anymore. I am going to wait. I keep looking for the perfect man and the perfect job and the perfect school but I think it is time for me to stop. It's time for me to just stop, walk and wait for what may cross my path.

When I think about it, some of the most amazing things that have happened in my life have come from the last place I thought I would look. I loved something I thought I never would. I found my awesome school by accident. I walked into something with no idea what to expect and have loved it so far. God likes surprising me, so I am going to let him.

All my looking has left me hurting myself and others at times. It is time for me to sit back and wait for God to do what He does best. I am going to sit back and wait for the show to start. I trust that God will bring me exactly what I need whether it be a boy, a job, a school, a hobby, anything. I trust Him. Always will.

Song of the Moment: Your Love Is A Song by Switchfoot ("With my eyes wide open. I've got my eyes wide open. I've been keeping my hopes unbroken...Your love is symphony...Your love is my remedy.")

Don't let others look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12