I Won't Lose It.

Lately there has been a certain song I wait to come on the radio. And when it doesn't I put it on myself. This song empowers me. It makes me feel like I'm not the only one. It makes me dance and sing along and raise my hands in the air. This is one powerful song.

This song is based on Mark 16:26 "What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?"

For quite a while now I have felt myself changing. I look at everything differently now. I pray differently now. I act differently. These are all good changes, no doubt about that, no matter what others might think.

I'm different. I really feel differen't. I feel closer to God. I feel like I am pleasing him with this change. Maybe I'm just telling myself that, but I don't think so.

I like this change. I'm not usually the biggest fan of change but I am really liking this one. This is a change I am enjoying and wanting to continue. I would take this change everyday....which is saying a lot coming from me.

The first day I heard the powerful song was a Saturday. It was the day after I heard someone talk about being in the world and not of the world. I thought it was crazy that I heard this song just the day afterward. I don't think it was any coincidence. God made the Earth perfect. He did not make the sin. He does not like the sin. So, I'm going to try my hardest to stay away from the earthly temptation. I've lost the battle a few times but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying.

I am trying to be in the world not of the world. And I pray that God will forgive me when I am of it.

Thank you.

Song of the Moment: Lose My Soul by TobyMac
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJ1p1ltofOQ

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12

It's Really Over

Tonight I sit here, for the first time, accepting that it is really over. My life is going to take a giant turn right now...I'm not really sure what is going to be the same.

Tonight out of curiousity and boredom I wandered to my school website. It told me that they were closing their doors and selling all their stuff. I knew it was happening, but it was kind of a kick in the gut. Now it's really done. I've been done school for over 2 weeks....my last school function was a week ago...and it's officially over. I am about to venture to a new school with new people and teachers and new everything.

I don't get to see my friends everyday. I don't get to walk to Subway at lunch. I don't get to go to the park. I don't get to waste as much time as I want before class. I don't get to know my teachers. I don't get what I've had for 12 years.

Today, as I sit in my house all alone, I realise that it is over. and it really hurts. Will I get over it? Yes. Eventually. This isn't the kind of pain that Rolos will fix as much as I'd like them too.

Lately I've been really good. I've been happy and moving on. But I guess sometimes you need a night. I'm trying to be strong. I'm trying to be happy. I don't want to be sad and bummy and sometimes it's really hard not to be.

I am strong. And if I'm not I know I can be. I will be. Everything that is happening is happening for a reason. A reason I hope to soon find out. Every night I pray for strength for myself and my friends. I pray that God will keep us strong in this difficult time and that he will guide on the right path. I guess for now that's all we can do.

Song of the moment: Already Over by RED
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oSJPCdafnLo

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young.
1 Timothy 4:12