Here I sit, 2 months after everything I knew fell to pieces. I'm still lost. I feel like if I have moved at all it's about 2 centimetres to the right of my little spot in a dark corner. I'm not even wandering in circles; I'm staring in a dark corner just hoping and praying that someone will come and pull me out of it.
I guess I lied a month ago. All of my blogs since then have been full of my "moments" as I call them. Not one happy one. Well, not really.
Will I ever find my way out of my corner? I can only pray that I do. Will someone help me? I can only pray that someone will. I still have so much to figure out. Where am I going in life? I have no idea.
I don't know how many more nights like these I can handle. They are awful. All I want to do is sleep and yet here I am at 2:18am writing a blog. How does that even make sense?
At least I know I've got one guy on my side: The Guy. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34: 18
I just wish that I could tell. That I could sense the direction He is pushing me in. That I could sense Him with me when I am having moments like these.
Song of the Moment: Breaking At The Cracks by Colbie Callait
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12
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