Chapter 5: Sunshine

God is good. That is all I have been saying the past 20 hours. God is good. He has answered my prayers. He is so good.

I am feeling really good right now. I have officially ended a chapter in my life. One of the best chapters in the Book of Beth. It had a bit of a tragic ending. The kind that when you read it you get mad at the author because that isn't what you wanted to happen, but then when you keep reading you find out why the author but in the tragedy: because something so much better came out of the tragedy. It was a happy ending all along. You just had to keep reading to find the good in all the bad.

Today I wandered my room, gathering memories and shedding my last tears over my ended chapter. It was the weirdest feeling putting everything in a box in my closet and shutting the door.

Three years ago Sunshine came into my life. It shed it's light on dark places in my life and made them bright. It taught me how to see life in a new way. It helped shed light on the path God wanted me to follow. The Sunshine helped me feel better when my days were dark and stormy and stood beside me on some of the brightest days of my life. This Sunshine changed my life. I will forever be grateful to this Sunshine for sharing it's light with me. Even more so, I will forever me grateful to God who gave me this Sunshine in the first place.

Chapter 5, Sunshine, has ended, but I will remember it forever. This chapter changed my life in such a drastic way. I am a completely different person than I was 3 years ago when the chapter began. I have learned so much. Seen so much. Loved so much.

God is good. Too good. He has given me so many things that I do not deserve. My days have been gray and gloomy the last couple months, but God has come and shed his light on me once again. Light I do not deserve after all the anger and blame I have placed on Him. Now all I can do is thank God for His grace, repent and change the ways I have been living my life in these gray times. God, you are so good to me. Thank you.

For everyone else out there, know that God loves you. Even if it seems like he is nowhere near you, He is. He is walking with you through all of our life's hardships and joys. He won't ever leave your side. So, if you are at one of the places in your own book where you are so mad at what the author wrote you want to chuck it at a wall, don't. Hold onto the book and keep reading to find out what happens. I promise you, if you stand near to Him, good things will come. His plan is much better than ours. Sometimes, we just have to wait and be patient.

If its wrong, God says "no." If the timing is wrong God says "slow". If we are wrong God says, "grow". But if the request is right, the timing is right, and we are right, God says "Go!"

Song(s) of the Moment: There are 2 this time. 1) Never Be The Same by RED 2) I Repent by Jennifer Jade Kerr (only on her Myspace)

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set and example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12