Legacy

What am I doing? I've been thinking that a lot lately. What am I doing here? What am I doing with my life? Where am I going?

When I was in high school, I could never give an answer to the ever popular "What do you want to do when you grow up?" question. Because I didn't know until a month before I had to apply for university. Now that I am coming to the end of my first year of college, with only one more year to go, people are starting to ask "What next?" And here I am once again with no answer. I could go back to school and get my BSW or eventually MSW, I could get a job and work or I could go to Bible College...something that has always intrigued me but I still question.

What do I want to do? I want to leave a legacy. I want to be remembered. I want to make a difference.

I have a list of things to do before I die on facebook. Number 49 is to make a difference in someone's life. I never expected to have that one crossed off anytime soon but about 6 months ago I received an e-mail from someone saying that this blog made a difference in her life. Was I shocked? Very. But how long with that actually last? Will she be telling her grandchildren about this great blog she read years and years ago? Probably not. It's not a legacy, it's just now.

You know, for a girl studying social work you would think I would be less worried about not making a difference. I mean, its kind of my job to make a difference in someone's life. But I am still worried. I think about if I'll be remembered at work once I leave. I mean, there are some people who have left years ago and are still being talked about today. The guy who put his nametag in the microwave, the manager who bugged everyone or the supervisor who everyone wants to work with. They all left a legacy.good or bad, in the world of Tim Hortons. Who will I be there?

I don't need everyone in the world knowing who I am. I would just like to do some really awesome stuff that my children will be proud to tell their children of. That people in the community or my church or my workplace will be able to say that I did something special.

I just want to leave this world knowing that I did something for it. Knowing that I didn't waste my life away doing nothing. Knowing that whatever I did was for God's glory.

Song of the Moment: Legacy by Sanctus Real

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.

1 Timothy 4:12