Tonight I sit here, for the first time, accepting that it is really over. My life is going to take a giant turn right now...I'm not really sure what is going to be the same.
Tonight out of curiousity and boredom I wandered to my school website. It told me that they were closing their doors and selling all their stuff. I knew it was happening, but it was kind of a kick in the gut. Now it's really done. I've been done school for over 2 weeks....my last school function was a week ago...and it's officially over. I am about to venture to a new school with new people and teachers and new everything.
I don't get to see my friends everyday. I don't get to walk to Subway at lunch. I don't get to go to the park. I don't get to waste as much time as I want before class. I don't get to know my teachers. I don't get what I've had for 12 years.
Today, as I sit in my house all alone, I realise that it is over. and it really hurts. Will I get over it? Yes. Eventually. This isn't the kind of pain that Rolos will fix as much as I'd like them too.
Lately I've been really good. I've been happy and moving on. But I guess sometimes you need a night. I'm trying to be strong. I'm trying to be happy. I don't want to be sad and bummy and sometimes it's really hard not to be.
I am strong. And if I'm not I know I can be. I will be. Everything that is happening is happening for a reason. A reason I hope to soon find out. Every night I pray for strength for myself and my friends. I pray that God will keep us strong in this difficult time and that he will guide on the right path. I guess for now that's all we can do.
Song of the moment: Already Over by RED
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oSJPCdafnLo
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young.
1 Timothy 4:12
1 comment:
"I don't get to see my friends everyday."
You'll make more friends, who you will then see everyday, assuming of course that you don't skip.
"I don't get to walk to Subway at lunch."
There's probably another Subway nearby, and if not, there's some other nearby restaurant.
"I don't get to go to the park."
See above comment.
"I don't get to waste as much time as I want before class."
You can always waste time before class, it doesn't really matter what school you're going to.
"I don't get to know my teachers."
You can if you want to.
"I don't get what I've had for 12 years"
No you don't, but you get something different, and that may not be a bad thing. If you walk into your first day at school with this attitude though, I guarantee you probably won't enjoy one minute of your grade 12 year. Grade 12 is the last year of high school! Don't ruin it by dwelling on what would've been, try and enjoy it for what it is.
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