This year...Thankful

So today is thanksgiving day. And while I celebrated Thanksgiving yesterday...that doesn't mean I can't think about it today.

This thanksgiving was different than the others. And it's hard to explain why....it just was. I was at my cottage for the first time in about 6 years. I used to go up every year...but I hadn't been there for Thanksgiving in 6 years.

It was a good weekend. I had fun. Hung out with the fam. Saw an old friend. Went for my sunset walk. Ate some turkey. And went to church Sunday morning.

For the past 3 weeks I've been saying this year I'm actually thankful for something. In the past years I haven't really thought about what I'm thankful. I didn't think I had all that much too be thankful for. In the past years Thanksgiving has just been about Turkey dinner and a day off of school. But this year I actually have something to be thankful for.

I am thankful for the love God has shown me. I've spent a lot of the last year complaining and upset and not completely happy with the way things are going. But in the past 2 months and 6 days it has all changed. He completely turned my life around and for that I have to thank Him.

I am not deserving of God's love. I mean, I spent a whole year whining and complaining and now I have more than I could ever ask for. He's giving me so much. I don't deserve anything I've been given. I don't deserve anyone I've been given. I don't deserve it...and yet...I have it all.

So this Thanksgiving I'm actually thinking about what I'm thankful for.
I am thankful for the love God has given me and I pray that I can give the same amount back.
I am thankful for my friends...no matter how messed up they may be or however crazy we may be...I love them. And I'm glad I have every single one of them
I am thankful for my family. Who (for the most part) have really been there for me this past month. They have surprised me in many ways and can only expect the surprises to keep coming.
And last, but certainly not the least, I am thankful for the Sunshine. My Sunshine. You know who you are. Thankyou...for everything you have given me that I don't deserve....not in the least. but again...here you are. Thankyou. For everything. That's as much as I'll say here.

So. People. This thanksgiving really think about what you have. Who you have. And if you don't think you have anything or anyone....either you're wrong....or it's coming. Just wait patiently and pray. That's all you can do.

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Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young.
1 Timothy 4:12

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