World Spins Madly On

So here I am....sitting happy as could be...And it hits me...I only have 26 days left of school. 26 days. That's it. And then i go on mission trip and i come home and it's all over. The year will be over. And it makes me sad.

Why does it make me sad? Because this year was a good year. And yes...some stuff has gone down. And yes...i'd say that this year has been very emotionally exhausting but I think that it's been worth it. It's been worth all the stress and the worry and the crap that I've put up with. It's been worth it all. Because the good times this year....have been great. I think without all the crap the good times wouldn't have been as good. They would have just been mediocre.

But it also makes me start to think about next year. What's it going to be like next year. I have friends that are graduating...I finally get the school all to myself. The Moffett name is mine and mine alone. I don't have anyone to share it with anymore. It's mine. It's going to be weird. Once you're past about the first 2 monts of school you have your comfort zone. Everyone is comfortable...and then comes the summer and messes everything up and you have to remake it all over again.

I also don't think I'm going to make it through next year knowing that after it will come gr. 12. And i don't think I'm ready for that. I don't want to figure out what I want to do in life. I don't want to worry about where I'm going to go to school. I don't want to have to worry about scholarships, and loans, and applying for university. I don't want to. I would love it if time could stand still right now in these very moments. These moments when I'm happy. I am happy right now...and I would like it to stick just a little bit more.

So, while the world rushes forwards. I would love to just stand here and watch it go. And maybe keep my friends with me and our good times. I don't want to have to grow up. This year I already grew...and I would like to be done growing because i don't like the growing pains. The ones are bound to get worse.

So, while all you go forward. I'll be here. In the now. In the happy. And I'll watch all of you continue to grow. And I wish i could just watch...and not have to feel all those pains that come with the growing. I'm done with those. I would love to be done with all of this. But that's not possible. I guess I'll have to live like everybody else.

One step at a time.

Song of the Day: World Spins Madly On by The Weepies...The whole world is moving...and I'm standing still.

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young.

1 Timothy 4 :12

Music is what feelings sound like...♥